03567 – If I Go…
Tidsworth, Mark

Right now, there are people literally considering leaving their homes to gather with others for worship, wondering:

-If I go, can I stand or sit in that area of the sanctuary where we sat together for 18 years before his passing without sobbing so loud I’ll distract everyone?

-If I go, is it a safe place where I can bring my whole self, or do I keep that part of me hidden to avoid the discomfort?

-If I go, what do I do with these doubts following me around…will they know I’m not too sure about God anymore?

-If I go, how happy do I have to pretend to be…maybe I can be quiet and they’ll just think I’m tired?

-If I go, will anything happen…I need a deep drink of spiritual connection and grace and I don’t even know what else?

-If I go, will anyone there actually see me, open to engaging me beyond nice greetings?

May we be church this day, open to God and each other as we gather around the Way of Jesus.

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